Tuesday, November 2, 2010

what i haven't shared with ya'll...

Ok. So it's a known fact that sometimes when my weight loss isn't going as perfect as it should be and I snuck and ate that little roll with my lunch that I should have never ate, and trust me I have felt guilty all day, that I tend to over load my blog with make up, fun pictures of my family, or the cute bubbly side of Mary that I hope everyone enjoys.



With that being said.....I think you can see where this is going. There has been an abundance of bubbly Mary, cute pictures, and make up. And while I really enjoy blogging about those subjects, it's time to talk about weight and this band that I had installed around my stomach :) Oh, I must put a disclaimer out that part of the reason for all the cuteness, pictures, and make up is also a part of my huge commitment to try and blog, which I think I have been succeeding ;)



Now back to the weight......if I keep rambling on I am liable to post a make up tutorial instead :) So far my weight loss has been good I think. I posted a post at the end of last week declaring the victory that I had lost 36 lbs. Really ground breaking news for Mary. Mary who couldn't even manage to loose 10 lbs a year ago while taking diet pills. What I didn't share with ya'll was the fact that the scale told me a secret this past weekend. It told me that I had lost 2 more lbs bringing my total to 38 lbs. 38 lbs. I was literally in shock, I weighed 272 lbs. Well in all reality, I wasn't in shock too long because the next day I was back up to 276 lbs. Then the next day 275 lbs. Heart broken. I really can't figure it out. I know it pretty much has to be water. I didn't eat that much food to cause that big of a weight gain in that short of time. Even with knowing that it has still affected my week. I have eaten a couple pieces of Halloween candy here and there that I might have not eaten if I was still on my I weigh 272 lbs high. But because I was on a gain low it was even more the reason to eat :( I have a Dr.'s appointment on Thursday for a fill. In all honesty I have done great this month. On Thursday it will be exactly 1 month since I had my first fill. I weighed 281 lbs the day I got my fill and a month later, even if on Thursday I am still at 285 lbs, I am down at least 6 lbs. That's great according to my Dr.'s standards. He likes 1 lb a week, no more than 2 or no fill! So, I shouldn't be beating myself up all the time over this! I have a band, it's been life changing, and I know for sure my life is changing. You know I am coming up on my 3rd month band anniversary. It really seems like forever ago that I had this procedure done. Looking back I still can't believe I went through with it. Totally against my character. I am so happy with my decision to do this. And, I am doing this! Even if I have only lost 35 lbs...... 35 lbs is a huge accomplishment in less than 3 months. Sometimes when I think about the band I have mixed feelings. I am not sure if everyone has the same exact feelings, but I thought I would share. Sometimes I am so thankful for the band because for a couple minutes if I think really hard I can grasp my head around just how live saving this band is. How much it has changed me already, and how much I know it is going to change me for the better. Some days I worry, it isn't working. Some days I worry, it is working too much. Some days I think, why did I even get this? Some days, I think how could I have even considered not doing this? Some days it scares me, how is this band going to change my mind, my thought process. Some days I stop and think, I am such a different person than I was 3 months ago, and then it makes me so proud of myself. Sometimes I look in the mirror and get scared, what if it changes my body too much? Sometimes I look in the mirror and get scared, what if you can never tell the difference? Some days, and I must add it is almost everyday, I thank God for this opportunity. That I went for it. That I am working it. That I know it is working. That I know I am going to be ok.

Toodles Poodles ;)
So....I wrote this blog yesterday. This morning my scale said 276 lbs :( Not good! It is time for an intervention! Thank God I am getting a fill tomorrow!! It is time for an intervention ladies! I'll write a blog later on what I am going to change! I know what I am doing wrong. It's time to fix it!

7 comments:

Pamela E. Williams said...

And yes YOU ARE DOING IT!! I have realized that this band thing has no science to it. There are days where you do everything right and have a gain and then there are days when you do everything right and have a loss. Likewise there are days you do everything wrong and have a gain and then there are days you do everything wrong and have a loss. Go figure. I say just continue to do whats right and what you do wrong, correct it and keep it moving. I think you are doing great and 35# is a great accomplishment. We in this together!!

Robin said...

35 pounds is great! Keep it up!

Darlin1 said...

Your weight loss is amazing. It does sound like you need a fill. When you get to your sweet spot your band won't allow you to have that extra roll. No questioning yourself!

~Lisa~ (Mrs C) said...

You have the cutest blog - I love it!! Thank you for signing up for my blog - that lead me to YOURS!!

I enjoyed your vlogs too! Just LOVE that southern voice!! Can't wait to read more and learn more about you!

Silverhairedgoddess said...

Yes, 35 pounds is 3 months is a really good weight loss - and, yes, do a blog and list the things you want to change and that will re-motivate you ... sometimes just seeing something in black and white helps to refocus us.

Ms. M said...

35 pounds is great!

Looking forward to seeing what you plan to change. :)

Christina said...

35 pounds is nothing to sneeze at, and neither is a 6-pound loss in a month. I know we want the weight to come off fast, but sometimes we just have settle for slow and steady. It's good that you're honest though and able to admit that things could be better. Don't forget to make that list of changes :)

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