Ant + Mary = The Real Deal

So.....I was going back over the post I wrote yesterday and I noticed something! Well, I really talked around the question that my friend asked. I had full intentions of that whole blog fitting together perfectly, but in true MARY style I got side tracked and kinda went off on something else! A true "popular sanguine" at heart I must say! (that is a personality type.....if anyone else knew that extra Mary love points for you, oh and leave me a comment for what type you are!!!) Actually I must come clean that my husband just called me and nicely reminded me that he should get some credit for me loving myself so much, and he should it is rightly deserved! So.....on with the rest of this blog!

I think our relationship is going to be fine! Yes, I really do! Here is why! It was what I was trying to say yesterday it just never made a full circle! Ya'll knew what I meant didn't you??? :) Not only am I happy and in love with myself, I feel the same way about where our relationship is......I love it! I think it is great! I feel PERFECT exactly where I am at with myself (on the inside) and in my marriage!

When me and Anthony started dating I was 21 and weighed 163 lbs. I was pretty hot! My weight has always gone up and down drastically in my life, this just happen to be a time that I was at my absolute skinniest. I was at the same weight I was at the day I graduated from high school. I was skinny for MARY, almost too skinny! Anthony was engaged when we first meet. I couldn't help it though. We feel in love immediately! It was one of those moments where I JUST KNEW!!!!! I knew right then I was in trouble because he was engaged, and I was going to fall in love with him. I knew we would be together FOREVER. I JUST KNEW! It really is a great feeling when you can take one look at someone and know that is your future!

Soon after we started dating I had to come off the diet pills I had been on. It had been a good run (over 2 years) on this particular kind and it was getting hard to get a prescription. Let's just say I gained some weight back, really quickly! I can remember going on vacation with my family and Ant to the beach and I gained 13 lbs. in like 5 days. I couldn't even button the pants I had worn on the way on the way home :(

Over our 6 year relationship I have gained lots of weight and lost lots of weight, but one thing has always remained the same.....Ant and I! I love him and he loves me, the real me that I know and love so much also!

So that's why I have so much confidence in our relationship, he has seen me at my best when he feel in love with me and he has loved me through my worst.

He is so supportive and so encouraging to me at all times!

I could never ask for a better husband, he makes me feel so SPECIAL!

Through him and God is how I found me, and that is a great feeling :)

Life is full of bubbles....when you are under the sea :)

I'm back guys from my vacation.....and I had a great time! It was seriously the BEST vacation ever! Just simple MAGICAL!!!! It was just great! I am so proud of myself!!!!!!! I rode everything I wanted to ride and did everything I wanted to do! It was just perfect! Here is some, really a ton, of pictures........and some thoughts :) stick around for the thoughts after the pictures! Some of you might enjoy :)

Magic Kingdom

Captain Jack

Minnie Mouse sparkle style ;)

Outside of Hollywood Studios

Ant singing on the American Idol Stage! He won 2 rounds of auditions, won the first live show with over 500 people in the audience, and got to sing in the live finale show that had over 700 people in the audience! I was so proud of him! ;)

Animal Kingdom

Downtown Disney

Sweet baby Praislyn was an angel the whole trip!

Cinderella

Epcot

Minnie Mouse

Epcot

Praislyn

Dumbo Ride !!!!!!

My sweet sister Mandy having the time of her LIFE!!!

Animal Kingdom.....Ant bought him a hat here ;)

My favs!

Getting ready to get on the bus!

4th of July!

Beautiful

I could seriously live in Minnie's house!

Welcome home ;)

Playing at Donald's Boat

Rain Forest Cafe at Animal Kingdom

Can not wait to see this movie ;)

Mickie Mouse

While I was on this trip I really got a chance to think about me and where I am in life. I am so proud of myself for taking this trip before I had weight loss surgery. I know that sounds silly but I really am just proud! You know it would have been so easy to take this trip after I had surgery and lost some of this weight, but I didn't want to do it that way! I wanted to prove to myself that my weight, whether fat or skinny, is NOT going to hold limitations over my life or my abilities! I walked 10 miles a day, just like everyone that traveled with us! I sometimes even walked up 3 flights of stairs after coming back to the resort after a very long day at one of the parks! I did it! And that makes me feel good! It makes me feel good about my upcoming surgery also!

Not to long ago one of my friends was asking ons about my surgery! I am a total open book and jump on any chance I get to talk about MY SURGERY! I am a total attention hog, I know! She started asking about my thoughts on the subject of weight loss surgery patients have a higher divorce rate and asked how I was going to handle it. (disclaimer....this lady is the sweetest lady in the world and did not mean this ugly in any way and I def didn't take it that way either, she was just curious and so am I about this subject) Anyway we got to talking about it, and here are my thoughts about it.........it ties into this post because I felt like my Disney trip was so awesome and freeing to be able to not let my weight affect ME!!!!!

I believe it is all about loving yourself and having a strong sense of who you are! I really think that is the key. You have to be happy with yourself fat or skinny! You have to love you on the inside. I feel like I am in a place in my life now, where I truly know exactly who I am. I know ME, and that's a great feeling! Sometimes I ask myself what am I looking for with this weight loss surgery? That is a hard question to answer. I am not trying to fix me. I like, really I love, me right now. I love the person I have become from the inside out! To be honest I am really not sure what I am looking for......it might be to buy a size large t-shirt instead of a 2x! It might be to make my face look a little less fat in pictures! You know I am really not sure. But, I do know this. It isn't to find me. I have already been found! I already know me and except me flaws and all! If I could spread one message to everyone I meet it would simply be this.....The best thing you can ever do in life is find yourself and fall in love. Once you do that everything else will just simply fall into place :)

Ant......He has my heart!

So I have been missing from the blogs lately! Sorry ya'll, I have just been so busy with work and church...... the list goes on and on! I thought I would write a post today about my FAN-tastic husband. Ya'll he really is so awesome! I call him Ant! His real name is Anthony! I was hoping to write this post last Monday but didn't get around to it! So, this one is for you Anty!!!!!! First here is a pic of my super HOT husband.........

I know he really is hot. ;)

Here are some more pics...

He is so my BEST friend! I love him so much!

Sweet story...

This weekend I had to be at work at 7:30 am on Saturday because we were having a spring fling to raise money for the non profit organization I work for. I was so bummed about having to work all day since there was so much around the house that I needed to get done. Well, to make a long story short he drove to town about 9:30 am to bring me breakfast, then when I got home he had straightened up the house, gone grocery shopping for me, and bought me a dress to wear on Sunday to church and a dvd - It's Complicated (which by the way was so funny)!!!!!!! It was the sweetest thing! It really meant a lot to me!

So Ant, thank you! I love you so much and am so excited about us spending the rest of our long and happy lives together! We were made for each other! :)

Now, onto Mary CRAZY news.

I think I need a brow lift.

I have been OBSESSING over this ALL day long. I have taken, I really can't even tell you how many, tons of pictures of my eyes and eye brows today. It is driving me crazy.

The dilemma.

My eye brows used to not be this low.......

Is it because I am a fatty?

Is it because I am getting old? I mean I am almost crossing the lines of turning 28!!!

Am I CRAZY???????

Here is some PROOF!

Ok, this is a picture of me in my YOUNGER days. Oh, and of course I weighed a COUPLE lbs. less than I do now ,like maybe 70 ;) ....

NOTICE the BROWS.......

Now here pic #1 from today - smiling with my mouth closed and in normal eye position...

Here is pic #2 - smiling with teeth showing and in normal eye position...

Here is pic #3 - smiling with teeth showing and in "make your own eye brow lift / my sister tells me I look retarded when I do this" position...

So. my conclusions....

I need a brow lift! :)

What do ya'll think. Maybe when I FINALLY get banded and start to loose some weight it will make my brows look more lifted because my face will not have so much fat on it? Will go with that answer for now, at least that makes me feel a little better that there is hope for my brows! :)

Oh, and I really need my teeth whitened............

Thanks for reading ya'll!

Oh, and Ant I love you big!