Support

I went to my support group this weekend! And.......I had a great time! It was the first time I have ever been, so I was a little nervous, but it ended up being great! I learned some new info, which is always good! I got to try some different kinds of protein and I even bought some! I ended up buying the Matrix vanilla kind. I choose it because they had lots of fun recipes that went with the vanilla kind and I thought it would be fun to change it up a bit!!! Some of the recipes were for a chocolate and peanut butter shake, strawberry cream shake, banana shake, and a chocolate shake! I tried most of them and they were all ok! I hope I can get used to drinking protein! I think it takes pretty nasty right now!!!! Anyway I got a copy of my pre-op diet at the meeting! I was actually kind of excited to see what I was going to get to eat.........which is pretty much NOTHING!!! I meant to bring the list so I could post it, but I forgot it! It basically was water, unsweetened tea, light juices, sugar free Popsicles, sugar free pudding, light yogurt, broth...........I guess the norm for most liquid diets! They want you to do it for 1 week unless you have a high BMI and then it is 2 weeks. If I had to guess I would guess I am going to have to do it for 2 weeks. My BMI according to me at 5'5" is 51. My BMI according to my surgeon's office at 5'4" is 53. I think that is a huge difference for only 1 inch!! I think that is a high BMI so I am just going to go ahead and plan on doing 2 weeks. I think it will be good for me!!!! Until then though I am sticking to the MARY PLAN and not thinking about what I eat. I know it isn't the best plan......but I am about to go on a crazy pre-op diet and HAVE WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY!!

Guess who I got to meet this weekend????? KIM!!!!! She is so sweet and so beautiful in person!! She made me feel so much more comfortable! Kim I really appreciate you going with me!!! It meant so much....so thank you so much!!!!!!!!! Her blog is here if you don't already follow her!!! http://good-byefattymcbutterpants.blogspot.com/!!!!!!

Closeness

This would be a good adjective to describe how I am feeling about my upcoming "procedure". Closeness. I think it is a good way to feel. It is getting close that's for sure! I can't help but maintain the idea that I am utterly UNPREPARED for this surgery! I need some advice from some pros!!! That would be ANYONE that reads my blog that is farther along in this journey than me...... pretty much EVERYONE!!!! I am probably about a 1 1/2 months away from have this "procedure" and my game plan right now is.......do whatever I want and eat whatever I want. Which is probably not the best game plan I'll admit! When ya'll were this close what were ya'll doing? Where you eating differently? Taking smaller bites? Exercising like crazy? Or, just setting back and mentally getting prepared? How do you mentally prepare?? I know I will more than likely have to do some sort of pre op diet before surgery. I have not been to my nutrition class yet because they want you to already have a surgery date when you go, I am guessing so it will be fresh on your mind when you actually have the surgery done. So I guess I just need some guidance! What are some things that I should be doing to get ready for this!!! I know you guys are great and will give me some great tips! :) I have faith in you!

I am going to the support group meeting tomorrow!!! Yay! I really am excited about going! I am going to get to meet a BLOGGER!!!!

The sweet KIM @ http://good-byefattymcbutterpants.blogspot.com/

I am looking forward to finally meeting her! My husband Anty is also going with me!!! I am hoping I get some good support and maybe some ideas on what I should be doing to prepare for surgery!!!

I hope everyone has an awesome weekend!!! Thanks for all the ideas ;)

Ant + Mary = The Real Deal

So.....I was going back over the post I wrote yesterday and I noticed something! Well, I really talked around the question that my friend asked. I had full intentions of that whole blog fitting together perfectly, but in true MARY style I got side tracked and kinda went off on something else! A true "popular sanguine" at heart I must say! (that is a personality type.....if anyone else knew that extra Mary love points for you, oh and leave me a comment for what type you are!!!) Actually I must come clean that my husband just called me and nicely reminded me that he should get some credit for me loving myself so much, and he should it is rightly deserved! So.....on with the rest of this blog!

I think our relationship is going to be fine! Yes, I really do! Here is why! It was what I was trying to say yesterday it just never made a full circle! Ya'll knew what I meant didn't you??? :) Not only am I happy and in love with myself, I feel the same way about where our relationship is......I love it! I think it is great! I feel PERFECT exactly where I am at with myself (on the inside) and in my marriage!

When me and Anthony started dating I was 21 and weighed 163 lbs. I was pretty hot! My weight has always gone up and down drastically in my life, this just happen to be a time that I was at my absolute skinniest. I was at the same weight I was at the day I graduated from high school. I was skinny for MARY, almost too skinny! Anthony was engaged when we first meet. I couldn't help it though. We feel in love immediately! It was one of those moments where I JUST KNEW!!!!! I knew right then I was in trouble because he was engaged, and I was going to fall in love with him. I knew we would be together FOREVER. I JUST KNEW! It really is a great feeling when you can take one look at someone and know that is your future!

Soon after we started dating I had to come off the diet pills I had been on. It had been a good run (over 2 years) on this particular kind and it was getting hard to get a prescription. Let's just say I gained some weight back, really quickly! I can remember going on vacation with my family and Ant to the beach and I gained 13 lbs. in like 5 days. I couldn't even button the pants I had worn on the way on the way home :(

Over our 6 year relationship I have gained lots of weight and lost lots of weight, but one thing has always remained the same.....Ant and I! I love him and he loves me, the real me that I know and love so much also!

So that's why I have so much confidence in our relationship, he has seen me at my best when he feel in love with me and he has loved me through my worst.

He is so supportive and so encouraging to me at all times!

I could never ask for a better husband, he makes me feel so SPECIAL!

Through him and God is how I found me, and that is a great feeling :)