Serenity.

I am on day 3 of my pre-op diet. Pretty good so far. I know it is really really weird but I actually feel good today! I had a massive headache yesterday, and was not sure I could take anything. I had been told previously not to take ibuprofen, alieve, motrin, or aspirin. So, I was a little concerned on whether I could take ANYTHING at all. I emailed my sweetie pie RN at my surgeons office and she said tylenol would be fine!!! Yay, no headache now. I really believe it is from no caffeine or sugar for the past 2 days.

I was a little disappointed this morning when I got on the scale and I hadn't lost an oz. I guess I was so shocked yesterday when I lost like 3 1/2 lbs. I expected it again today!!!!! I don't think I am going to weigh myself everyday anymore........never mind I know I will. It is just so weird because I NEVER loose any weight. It feels so weird that I actually did loose a couple of pounds. The last time I lost weight on a diet was probably over 2 years ago. I went to this steroid crazy Dr. That put me on a weight loss program. Basically just took lots of my $$$$ :) He tried to prescribe me diet pills but I wouldn't take them at first because I wanted to do it on my own. I lost 13 lbs. in 1 month. I was so excited. I only ate foods that "God" made...basically only natural foods. The next month I only lost 5 lbs. he told me it was horrible and it was like kicking him in the balls. Can we say inappropriate??? He then used cussed words in the same sentence he talked about going to church. Oh, and used the "N" word, because he was mad at African Americans because they built muscle easier than him????? Needless to say I never went back.

I had to go to Walmart AGAIN yesterday! I actually got hit on by a creepy man. I was walking into Walmart and this creeper say "Hey good looking, how are you?" Gross. It scared me. I didn't know what to say so, I said "Thank you!" I know, I told you it scared me and I didn't know what to say!!!!

Last night was a huge accomplishment. I like to say it was indeed a Labor of LOVE. Every month our church helps out with a drug recovery program called Celebrate Recovery. We provide the recovering addicts with a meal, serve the meal to them, and then our Praise Team sings the Praise and Worship for their service. I always enjoy going. Sometimes we go 2x a month. Last night it was hard!! We weren't serving anything special. It was just sandwiches, chips, brownies, and drinks. But, let me tell you!!!! A person on a liquid diet has a hard time serving ANYTHING!!!! I was serving the chips......In front of me was huge OPEN bags of every kind of chip I would DREAM about eating right now. I am talking Cheetos, Doritos, Plain, Sweet Heat, Sour Cram and Onion. You name it and we probably had it there. I had to serve everyone who came through the line hand fulls of CHIPS!!!!! Guess what, I did it! Even though it would have been SO easy to just eat 1 chip. I didn't! It really was a LABOR of LOVE! It made me feel good! Like.."Hey I can do this!" I didn't sing last night because I was a little weak. I don't think I am getting enough protein in still. I just sat in the audience and WORSHIPED! I felt such at PEACE! I actually cried. I love having ALONE time with GOD!!!

Protein shake this morning was a little better. I added frozen strawberries instead of just plain ice. I am not 100% that is aloud, but they were blended VERY WELL ;) I only put 1/2 a scoop of protein in it also. I know that's not right but I figured I can add a little more every time. Maybe this will help me get used to it!!!!! Other than that I will have a low fat cream of broccoli soup for lunch. Low fat yogurt for breakfast snack. Sugar free jello and pudding for afternoon snack. Some kind of brothy soup for dinner. Oh, and another protein shake hopefully!!!

At Celebrate Recovery we always say the Serenity Prayer with everyone before we leave. Even though I am not a "drug" addict, I still find it very positive and it helps me. I'll leave you with it!!!

God, grant me the Serenity
To accept the things I cannot change...
Courage to change the things I can,
And Wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as the pathway to peace.
Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it.
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His will.
That I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with Him forever in the next.
Amen.