Motivation.......

Motivation is something I desperately need.

These are some areas in my life I am slacking at....

WEIGHT

Duh, do I even have to get into this one????? I have lost not 1 lb in the past SEVERAL months. I am basically unmotivated to do anything weight related. I just eat basically whatever I want

:( Pretty bad when you think about it! I have a gym membership that I pay like over $40 a month for and haven't used it in MONTHS......Guys that is just pure laziness!!!!! I contribute my lack of laziness to having to endure 7 months of HELL while waiting to be able to wait for my insurance company to approve me for this surgery I want to have....... :( That is my main excuse at this point...I don't have any weight motivation NOW because I am having to do all this WAITING and it is very DISCOURAGING.....sounds ok, right???? Let's just hope I will actually have SOME motivation when I actually do have this surgery :)

WORK

I basically have no motivation at work either. I really have a lot of things I need to get accomplished EVERY day, but I just can not get any energy to do anything, except shop at Old Navy online, snoop on Face Book, read all the juicy gossip on Perez Hilton - TMZ - and X17Online!!!! Get my drift!!!!!!!

BLOGGING

I have been such a SLACKER!!! I still read / keep up with every ones blogs, just don't comment, or make any posts!!!!!!! Honest aren't I?????? I have got to be better!!!! I really do enjoy blogging it really makes me feel better about myself, and that I am not in this alone!!!!! I will try to do better this month! PROMISE :)

MARY KAY

I have really not been doing what I need to in Mary Kay. I so needed to get on the ball and sell some products for my upcoming VACATION!!!! I have sold some things, which is how I bought those clothes, but not anywhere where I needed to be in sales. I am going to make some calls tonight and hopefully set up some facials for next weekend!!!!!! If anyone needs anything let me know!!!!! You can email me at catmalonesellers@yahoo.com :)

That's pretty much all I have for today :)

I really don't have that much planned for the weekend, so that will be a nice change. My weekends are normally jammed packed!!!!

Clothes I have been Buying for Disney World!!!!

This is a post of some of the clothes I have bought to go to Disney World in!!!!!! They are not for the Sisterhood......sorry ladies!!!! :) Tell me what ya'll think!!!!

PS: I have no idea why my text is looking weird, maybe it will not show up like that when I actually post it????? Smiles ladies and boys!!!! It's Friday!

OK.....I know there is like a rule somewhere that says fat girls shouldn't wear rompers and stripes, but I don't really like rules anyways!!!! I haven't tried this on yet, but I am keeping my fingers crossed it will look ok. It has pockets, which I just love!!!! It is from Old Navy - Plus size honey :) - 2x!!!! I'll let ya'll know how it works out :)

UPDATE******* Should always stick to the rule of "fat girls should not wear rompers" :) This looked really actually horrible! Nothing flattering at all! It is already packaged up and on it's way back to Old Navy!

This dress is actually really cute and cheap! I think I paid like $19.00 for it! It is really low cut, but will be perfect for vacation! When I wear it to work I just wear a tank underneath it!!! It is from Old Navy - Regular size girls :) - XXL

Once again breaking the fat girls shouldn't wear stripes rule!!!! Love this dress - love the $$$$ even better $14.99!!!! It is also from Old Navy - Regular size girls - XXL :)

I bought these shorts from Old Navy in a size 24 and guess what.....they were too tight! Huge blow to my self :( I had to send them back :( They were really too tight!!!!! The next picture is what I replaced them with....

I bought these shorts instead of the blue jean ones. I had to call and order these because I was exchanging them for the other ones and had already thrown away my return packing slip. I had decided to order my next pair of shorts in a bigger size. I refused to say the size over the phone. When the lady asked me what size I wanted I said a 2 and a 6. At first she didn't get it, but when I told her it sounded better to say it that way she understood! I am really glad I got these in a bigger size!!! They fit great! I also just ordered them in white :)

Love this.....Old Navy - Regular girls size - XXL

I thought this was cute - Old Navy - Regular girl size - XXL


I am actually wearing this today!!! It is so cool and feels great - Old Navy - Regular girl size - XXL

I bought this for the 4th of July!!!!! Old Navy - Regular girl size - XXL

OK!!!!! I hope ya'll weren't too bored by my post all about me and what I will be wearing to Disney!!!!!!! I might try to post a little better post this afternoon! It feels good to be back!

Hello.....my name is Mary :)

I know, I know.....I have been gone for way too long this time! I need a spanking! :)

No great excuses just a busy life in general!

I was talking to Amy @ http://babblesofabandster.blogspot.com/ and she said she missed my blog! Sweet isn't she!! She is also sending me some clothes!!!!!!!! I just love her! :)

I have really just been busy with work....church....church......home.....just everything!

I promise to start doing better! :)

On the weight loss front I am doing awesome I have lost 0 lbs!!!!!!!! Cool huh! Just joking...about it being awesome, I really have lost not one single lb :( Sad I know! I just have had to come to terms with the fact that I can just not loose weight on my own. It just doesn't happen for me :( I really don't know what to do about it, other thank just sit back and wait and pray really hard that when I do finally get this tool inside me I will succeed. Kinda depressing :( I need encouragement :) Maybe ya'll could help me with this.....hint hint ;) !!!

On the life front everything is going great just bust great! I am not sure if ya'll remember but my husband Anthony had hurt his foot while dancing at church the last time I posted! Well, praise God everything is fine! The first ortho we saw was here in Jasper was not really that good

:( Of course he wanted to do surgery like he does with every patient he sees :) Get my drift!!! Surgery was not in our vocabulary for a lot of reasons! So we went to see an ankle specialist in Birmingham at the Andrews clinic!!!!! Awesome experience! Guess what he said everything was fine :) Oh, and Eli Manning was in there the day we were! Pretty cool huh!!!!!!

On the Mary needs a vacation front everything is moving right along! Disney is less than a month away! Since I haven't managed to loose any weight :( I have just come to the terms that I am going to be doing Disney as a BIG GIRL!!!! But you know what, I am a hottie and you better believe that I am going to rock it big and beautiful style! :) I'll just have to squeeze in the rides!!!!! :) I have been doing a little shopping for my trip......here is some things I have bought!

Ok blogger is being weird and will not let up my upload my pictures :(

I'll try to post them later!!!

Now, ya'll get to leaving encouraging comments! :)

Thanks in advance! :)

I need some clothes help......

Hi guys!

I have thought it was Friday all day today!

Man, I hate it when I do that!!!!

I need some plus size shorts and cute dresses to wear on my vacation.......

Any good websites besides Old Navy????

Thanks ya'll!

"No we don't have any kids.........Oh it's ok, you don't have to be sorry."

This is my response to a conversation I have very often with random people.

It goes something like this....

random person: Do you and your husband have children?

me: No, we sure don't. Not yet, at least.

random person: Oh my goodness I am so sorry....

me: Oh, you don't have to be sorry it is fine, we just haven't had children yet.

random person: Well, how old are you?

me: Ummmmmm, I'm about 27ish

random person: OH, how long have you been married?

me: Almost 4 years.....

random person: Wow, ya'll haven't had any children yet, you better get started times a ticking.

It is always worse near Mother's Day. Mother's Day was the day Ant hurt his foot. EVERYWHERE we went that day someone would ask me if I was a Mother and then this WHOLE conversation would be started. It goes pretty much the same EVERY time. Sometimes I get tired of it. I mean I do know how old I am, and I do realize we do not have children yet!

The reason we do not have children yet is because....... well I guess there are a lot of reasons

#1

ME

I have not been diagnosed with this but I think I might have Tocophobia. Has any one ever heard of it? It is the scardness (not sure if that is a word but I hate saying the word "fear") of being pregnant. I am not really scared of having babies so I am not sure if I would technically be considered in the tocophobia group. I just get really nervous about anything medically and that includes child birthing! :) I have always just thought adoption would be a better method. I know there are some people out there that get weirded out about a baby actually living in them and all that, but that is not where my scardness is. I would just be nervous about the whole actual birth and nastiness like blood.....ewwwwwwwwwwwww! I know I am a big ol chicken :) You don't have to tell me! I get nervous when I get a paper cut! Anyway this isn't something I can't get past, but it is something I think about.

#2

MY WEIGHT

My weight has always played a huge part in why we didn't have babies. I look back now and we should have just done it right when we got married! I think back to why we didn't then and there was lots of reasons. We had just gotten married for one. I wanted to weight until I had lost some more weight. I should have just went for it, because let's face there is lots of things I have accomplished since we married but loosing weight has never made the list :) Every time I go to the Dr., the lady station Dr. I get the same spill......you can't have a baby now you weigh way too much. The last time I was at the Dr. she told me I had to loose at least 40ish pounds before I should even try. Now it would probably around 50ish :) I have always been so scared to get pregnant because of my weight. Really one of the main reasons for me wanting this surgery is I do want children! I try to act like it doesn't bother me, but it does. Here in the deep south if you aren't married and at least popped out 2 kids by the time your 25 they consider you WEIRD!!!!!

Now that I have analysed this blog really there are only two big reasons MY WEIGHT and MYSELF.

sigh......

Sometimes I wonder if I sabotage my weight loss myself because I know if I am fat I can't have a baby? That was really even hard for me to type. I do wonder that sometimes though. I really do want babies so bad. I hope once I loose the weight for good I will be so excited I will just go for it! I am so excited about getting this surgery! I think it is going to be the best thing in the world for me! I think it is going to help me get over some stuff and help me grow as a person! By this time next year ever thing is going to be different! Hey, I might even be pregnant.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!!!!!

Life = Busy = Crazy

I guess the title pretty much sums it up......I have been one busy lady lately!

I don't want to bore ya'll with a three page long post about everything I have been doing.... so I will do a little picture recap :)

We had a Family Fun day at our church 2 weekends ago....have I told ya'll my husband is the Pastor of our church? We have a non-denomination church in Alabama :) Love it! Here is some pictures from that day! We put up a huge slip n slide down the front lawn of the church! The kids love it, and the adults too! I didn't go down it this year because I was too busy supervising, but Ant got pushed down it in his nice church clothes!!!!!!!

Looks fun doesn't it! It really is a blast!

Last Friday I had to take off work because we were having a yard sale at our church on Friday and Saturday......

We had some kids bicycles for sale so I decided to take a break and ride one :) I am modeling an apron in this picture! We were also selling hand made aprons!

I finally got some plants planted! I think they are beautiful :)

My Cala Lillies! They are blooming and gorgeous!!!!


These are Hybrid Lillies I just planted! They will bloom in just a couple days :)

This is my Peony Plant!!! My favorite flower!!!!!!!!

Last but not least, my sweet husband had an accident this weekend.......

He fell at church and hurt is foot really badly!

After being at the Dr.'s offices on Sunday and Monday this is the outcome...

He has a boot on and is on crutches!!! We are beliving God that everything is going to be just fine! He goes for an MRI on Wednesday! Nothing is broken just severely HURT!!!!!!!!! It is his right foot, so he can't drive or really do anything!!! Poor baby!!!! All my attention has been on HIM since this happened!!!!

Hope ya'll had a great Mother's Day weekend!

Oh, I almost forgot, duh.......

I went to my 4th Dr.'s appointment today for my "waiting to get insurance approval 7 month's of hell" appointments :)

Only 3 more to go!

She said everything looked good....

I am STILL fat :)

Ant......He has my heart!

So I have been missing from the blogs lately! Sorry ya'll, I have just been so busy with work and church...... the list goes on and on! I thought I would write a post today about my FAN-tastic husband. Ya'll he really is so awesome! I call him Ant! His real name is Anthony! I was hoping to write this post last Monday but didn't get around to it! So, this one is for you Anty!!!!!! First here is a pic of my super HOT husband.........

I know he really is hot. ;)

Here are some more pics...

He is so my BEST friend! I love him so much!

Sweet story...

This weekend I had to be at work at 7:30 am on Saturday because we were having a spring fling to raise money for the non profit organization I work for. I was so bummed about having to work all day since there was so much around the house that I needed to get done. Well, to make a long story short he drove to town about 9:30 am to bring me breakfast, then when I got home he had straightened up the house, gone grocery shopping for me, and bought me a dress to wear on Sunday to church and a dvd - It's Complicated (which by the way was so funny)!!!!!!! It was the sweetest thing! It really meant a lot to me!

So Ant, thank you! I love you so much and am so excited about us spending the rest of our long and happy lives together! We were made for each other! :)

Now, onto Mary CRAZY news.

I think I need a brow lift.

I have been OBSESSING over this ALL day long. I have taken, I really can't even tell you how many, tons of pictures of my eyes and eye brows today. It is driving me crazy.

The dilemma.

My eye brows used to not be this low.......

Is it because I am a fatty?

Is it because I am getting old? I mean I am almost crossing the lines of turning 28!!!

Am I CRAZY???????

Here is some PROOF!

Ok, this is a picture of me in my YOUNGER days. Oh, and of course I weighed a COUPLE lbs. less than I do now ,like maybe 70 ;) ....

NOTICE the BROWS.......

Now here pic #1 from today - smiling with my mouth closed and in normal eye position...

Here is pic #2 - smiling with teeth showing and in normal eye position...

Here is pic #3 - smiling with teeth showing and in "make your own eye brow lift / my sister tells me I look retarded when I do this" position...

So. my conclusions....

I need a brow lift! :)

What do ya'll think. Maybe when I FINALLY get banded and start to loose some weight it will make my brows look more lifted because my face will not have so much fat on it? Will go with that answer for now, at least that makes me feel a little better that there is hope for my brows! :)

Oh, and I really need my teeth whitened............

Thanks for reading ya'll!

Oh, and Ant I love you big!